Thought I would share it with you as It still amazes me how young we were then and yet It feels as though it was just yesterday.
Many of you have asked how I'm doing since Dave's death almost three months ago now.
I really have nothing to compare it too to give you an honest answer...I've never lost someone I've loved so much.
There are days I think I'm doing well and then there are days when sadness becomes my closest friend.
Missing him is suffocating at times, we were so close...probably too close.
There is no place I can go...or anything I can do that doesn't remind me of him...we were too close.
My M/O is to keep busy when my heart is breaking and I've been doing that, maybe to a fault.
I think I need some time to just take some time out and climb up on the Lords lap and grieve.
I keep coming across things like this card that came with flowers years ago and find myself constantly fighting to not be sad and cry....
I've decided to give into it all and hopefully speed up the grieving process...(so typical of me).
Saddness is basically foreign to my personality...I'm always up...happy...smiling, that's just me.
I don't care for this new "Best Friend"...Sadness.
So...I'm going to take some time and see if I can't just dump it, with some help from the Lord.
I knew this retreating thing would happen...we all have our ways of dealing with grief,
this is mine.
Taking some time out to always be thinking of him now...and working things out.
Blessing to you all...be back soon,
xoxo~Kathy
